This piece began as a reworking of a previous, shorter piece I had from a year prior. As I began pulling apart, stretching, stitching, new threads emerged that I couldn't leave loose and hanging. The bulk of the piece came together in short order in just a few days. It became apparent there were going to be distinct movements and the task for me was to allow each movement to stick around long enough for them to be fully delved into, while also flexible and spacious so they could fall away into the next. I used instrumentation that I have had growing familiarity with over the years, but very little technical skill or know-how (vibraphone, piano, violin, drums) and left out those that I tend to spend much more time with (pedal steel, guitar). I knew this piece was to be about trusting my gestures, touch, and heart much more than about my comfortable methods of making music.
Sustained listening allows for the space to become acquainted with the character of sound. Like in a film or book, the best kinds create a believable character. We trust their presence and give ourselves over to their evolution, what they have to show us. They stick around long enough for that trust to be established. And even when they turn, or show another face, we still trust that it was a necessary moment, a necessary change. I think of sound in this way. As a form of surrender, choicelessness. “Do with me as you must” kinda trip. Because I know that in that space is where hearts reach out and touch one another, even if just for a moment. It’s winding and uncertain, full of boredom and surprises.
Written, recorded, and performed by Sam Wenc
Clarinet by Jack Braunstein
Recorded in Philadelphia, PA; March 2024